: i'll die if i din tell things that hiding in my heart
that is my situation now
yesterday i cant asleep until around 3am
rolling on my bed and i was thinking about those things, so fucking irritated
i don't know why but i just cant sleep
that day when i was playing left 4 dead 2 you MSG me
i dint reply you coz i don't know what to say, seriously i fucking hate misunderstanding
i scare that war will never end if i say something wrong
you know, i hate being like this, so fucking tired
i'll reply you right here right now, i don't care whether you'll see this anot coz
i'll die if i din tell things that hiding in my heart
you know what?
i cant understand why you want to pretend nothing happened
about 4 month ago when in the chemistry lab
when you were using your phone MSG with your dear, i saw what he reply you about me
you know what i feel?
before that i never tell Jason about your bad words
although sometimes i did wrong, i like to spend money indeed
btw that is my own business i didn't show off to anybody also
and i ain't to show off to you too
and you don't even know what other think of you
even in seta, they also told me that you like to show off things that never exist
you never want to go out with us
you like to act cute especially in-front of guys
and you like to criticize others especially their physical appearance and you know how sad they are when you say them ugly
you don't know coz people wont say in-front of you
don't say i crap
swear if you have not done even one of above
it is okay since everybody have their shortcoming and i have too
i'm bad girl indeed
and i realize my false, so sorry if i hurt you purposely
i treasure our friendship but you didn't
you know why i say so?
i told you not to tell your dear about what i say to you
i disobey the promise that i make with him
and do you know why?
coz i love you, my friend!
i want you to find a better guy coz you worth it
but you never listen to me
you know when he ask me if he want to ambiguous with me what will i do
do you know what i reply him?
i say i love you i love my friend i don't want and i don't ever wish to hurt you
it is okay if you don't believe me and yes i know you wont believe me
but what i want to tell you is I NEVER LIE
it is not easy to me when i decided to tell you the story
TOO BAD COZ I DONT HAVE EVIDENCE
it is your choice either believe me or him or YOURSELF.
i angry with you coz you make promise with me, too
but you fail to keep the promise
i don't know whether you remember that time when i tell you what will i do if you break promise
i don't care what I've done before that
what i know is you didn't really engrave my words
but i just want you to remind what I've said
i'll break off our friendship if you break the promise
you know how important a promise mean to a friend or to me?
and last i just want to tell you i never en-graft them not to talk to you
i'm just kidding with songyu once but i never take it real
btw, you didn't know about what they say on you, do you? :)
and so, mind your words please since we WERE best friends before this
i never want to hurt you and i wish you too
you can pretend nothing happened, but i cant.
